I lied. I’m not taking a break.
Figured out that I’m dealing some sort of depression — no drugs, thanks — which only made it worse when I was shitcanned from my job Friday for reasons that add up to office gossip and a lack of initiative on management’s part to let me clear up any doubts about my veracity or performance for, oh, about a month while I continued about my business thinking everything was a-okay. In any case, I have lots of free time on my hands as I job search, get drunk, and cry myself to sleep in a little ball on the floor of the bathroom every night at 3am.*
But there are good things. I don’t have to commute to Methtown anymore. I don’t live there and I never have to see the people I worked with again. I do know, after talking to a former coworker, that everyone in the office is livid with management for canning me. (Call me petty, but that is a plus.) I can look for a job that might cover my therapy bills. And finally, I got to see a tornado. At a mental hospital. Less than 100 yards away from me.
What I do know is that I am worth more than the salary they paid me. I may not find anything for awhile that isn’t second-shift factory work, but I know now that I’m going after grad school. This gig wasn’t me. It was good enough and I was reasonably happy doing it. Will doors open for me that I don’t yet see? Yep. I’m cool with that.
*Kidding. 9pm.
It’s nice to have you back so quickly.
I like how it totally posted what I wrote.
But yeah.
&hearts
$20 says there’s a budget cut in there. Knowing that someone has to go, they generally pull the last in/first out rule.
the last in/first out rule.
Doesn’t this belong on the oral sex thread?
Seriously, McBoing, even if the net effect is positive, sorry to hear about the upheaval. That’s just plain no good.
Does this mean you won’t call me Betty?
I was in the same place a couple months ago. Still am basically. Good luck with your shit.
I *heart* McBoing and I am very happy that he is back.
Ouch. Nobody likes getting canned, even from a job they should have left, even when it’s time to move on.
I’m worried about your depression. It’s good to see you posting.
I’m thinking of you too. Good to see you here.
Be well.
mcboing,
sorry to hear about the tough stuff. i really appreciate what you post, and i also am in the unenviable position of trying to find a job and not really getting anywhere. but hang in there. the internets love you!